writing

"Anyone can become a writer. The trick is staying a writer." ~ Harlan Ellison

I do not think of my self as a writer. Not at all. Yes, I would love to be a writer, to be an author, but believe I am far from that. It is true that I love to write, to put my thoughts down on paper, to let it all go, and then to read it again, who knows when.

"Don't think it, ink it." ~Mark Hansen

Teachers always told me I had to proofread, not someone else's work only, but my own writing also. I find that hard. If I have written something and then have to read it over again, my right hand ring finger automatically goes to the backspace button on my dear keyboard. It is just about impossible for me to read over my own writing just minutes after I have written it. Even if it is a day, or a week later the mistakes are overseen. Now, I know this is a bad thing. Every writer, every student, everyone should be able to read over their own writing and see the mistakes. Well when I do that, I just want to delete it all. I think I have gone crazy, talked on and on about nothing, and no one is interested.


"It's never too late--in fiction or in life--to revise." ~Nancy Thayer

Maybe you have noticed a thousand-and-one spelling mistakes in only one blog, and I am sorry about that. It is because I don't proofread my own writing. Not because I don't believe in proofreading. I do think it is very good to proofread, but not my own stuff. I have proofread many essays and projects for many people over the years, and really enjoy doing it for others. I then do not have the urge to delete it all. I guess my eyes look at other's writing differently then at my own.
Maybe it is because I doubt my own ability. Maybe it is because I think I don't write very well. Maybe it is because I doubt that any one is interested. Maybe it is because I write thinking no one really cares about what I write. Like hello, what good writing can come out of my typing? How do I correct my own writing if I think it is terrible in the first place.
Well that is a bit too the extremes, I don't think my writing is terrible quite yet. (If you think so, please, do tell me!) I know that I make many mistakes, that I do not use the right adjectives, adverbs, prepositions, pronouns, verb tenses and all the other whatnots that belong in a proper sentence. I know I can, and do write, quite crazily. It might be gibberish to you, and sometimes it is to me too.
Now, there is one thing that I can tell you about my writing. If you can follow my writing, you can follow the way I think. If you can understand my writing, you can understand the way I think. Please tell me if you do follow and understand my writing, because I would love to myself.

"There are a thousand thoughts lying within a man that he does not know till he takes up a pen to write." William Makepeace Thackeray