Monday, December 10, 2012

oma.

My oma passed away yesterday. Far from family I try and deal with this. I try and give it a place. To work it all through. Its difficult. Grieving is hard. Death is part of life. The end and a new beginning.

In His joy I may be strengthened. In His provision I may be satisfied. In His love I may be wrapped. In His Light I may see. In His arms I may rest. In His grace I may trust. In His gifts I may be encouraged. In His promises I may be lifted up. In His forgiveness I may be made clean. In His blood I may be washed. In His purity I am made white. In His comfort my tears are wiped away. In His Word I may find hope. In his kindness I may experience love. In His peace I may be at peace. In In His hands I am made whole. In Him I live, I’m made alive. I am convicted of this with a conviction that only God provides, and this gives me courage. To go through each day, as I learn more who He is I learn more of who I am and how I may serve Him. All the days of my life; until He returns, or calls me home. I can only imagine what that will be like, but I know I will live and die though and in Him alone. Forever.
                As I ponder these things I realize that through different situations I may experience God in different ways and be convicted of different things. As my oma just passed away yesterday I am struggling, I feel very alone and confused. The distance between my family and I is now so great. Homesickness sets in big time. It’s difficult to focus. And yet I feel the communion of the saints. People I don’t even know have offered their condolences. People across the globe pray for us and I feel lifted up by these prayers. I feel God’s hand comforting me, and at the same time I feel an emptiness, a void. God fills me up and provides for me and yet I feel so broken. So fragile and confused.



My oma. A woman of God. So blessed to have known her. But how I will miss her. 
She's now with Jesus. There's no place she'd rather be. 

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Then we who are alive, who are left, will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we will always be with the Lord.Therefore encourage one another with these words.
1 Thes. 4 :17,18


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