more change

This month has just started, and already it is a month that will be full of changes. I never really know how to deal with changes. Should I be happy, should I be sad? Should I be disappointed, or excited? Should I be anxious, or enthusiastic?

None of those words really describe how I am feeling now. I'm starting a new job soon, really soon, and it not only makes me feel excited, it also makes me feel scared. Scared of the unknown, scared of meeting and running into me, and not knowing what to do with what I have to face.

Other days I do not feel scared. I feel excited. Ready for this new thing in my life. Ready for my new job, my first job, my first full time position! I feel ready to get started, to teach, to help many people, to share my 'knowledge' with little kids, to give, to love, to be there for who need it. I feel excited to be in a school, for a whole year. Not as a student, but as EA.

Other days I just think of how many things I have learned, not only when I was in college, but also during the times I spent with kids in and outside of school. How will I ever be able to remember all the theories, good strategies, and great tips that can help me.

Today I am not really sure what I am to think of it all. Usually I can kind of describe what I feel, but not today. And that's okay, I believe it will come. Believe that I can do this, not because it's me, but because Christ lives in me and gives me strength!