a la minute

My life has changed. Things change. Over years, months, and even weeks. I don't always understand why things happen. Actually at the time things happen I never understand what the reasoning behind it is. What God's purpose for me is in those certain events. Sometimes it takes only days, other times months or even years before I see what the Lord was teaching me.

Right now I don't know why things had to go this way with my job as nanny. I don't know why or how, but things didn't turn out the way I thought they would. I am now without job, and it wasn't the way I had hoped my job would end. Even though it is hard at the moment. What have I done wrong? Was all the energy and input I gave for nothing? All I did was my best. All I did was what I thought I had to do. All I did was what I knew how to do.

What I know at this minute (a la minute) is that I find it hard. I feel like I failed, like I am failing in many areas of life. What I know at this minute is that I don't know what to do next.

But the pray, to praise God in all situations of life, to trust Him, and be patient. For all things He puts on our path are for His glory and to teach me something.

I guess this is a new start in my life. A new blank sheet that I can start. There are many things I can and want to get done this summer at home and stuff, but it's not the same as having a job. I will see what will happen, and what new start will come. I will keep you all posted on the job 'front'. We'll see when that happens..